Spoken with people got their opinions and advice, feeling a bit better still sad though but as it has been pointed out to me already. This wasn't my choice and I don't have to live with all the consequences they belong to someone else. Slowly coming back to myself and looking forward to the weekend especially the cream Selsby mmmm boy can't wait for that

Well so much for that then she just broke off our engagement and everything else via sms about 20 minutes ago. To all my friends whom I love dearly I'm ok alright really I am. I'm hurt and upset but I am fine so please don't try to get intouch with me for a few days ok just give me a little space and time then call all you want but I have to grieve a little for the baby I don't think I'm ever going to see again.

If you've never been tested you'll never find your true worth. Henry Rollins

Things are going a bit pear shaped at the moment, had a long chat with both K1 and english rose basically got the same advice. Slowly, carefully and have a well defined escape route. I suppose its true what they say you always hurt the ones you love.