Wires, batteries, clothes and foodstuffs every bloody where at the moment. K1 is heading off to Perth soon and I'm tagging along for the trip, nearly didn't as I was somewhat worried I might just be trying to run away from all my current problems. Gave it some thought and realised that I've done or am doing everything possible at the moment, nothing to do till late July early August when the baby is due. So I'm basically spinning my wheels otherwise so with a content smile on my face I'm looking forward to a once in a lifetime trip across my own country no less.

Speaking of packing when K1 asked was I bringing entertainment with me I replied yes I'm bringing a TV and a DVD player man I wish I had had my camera to catch the expression on her face priceless.


Addendum: Cerrnunnon and R I am bearing bday gifts for you both from Kez see you in a few weeks

Sigh the month is almost up and still no word. I knew she could be immature, hell who isn't at times but for someone whos 28 this is a little silly. I'm wondering why? Is she embarassed to talk to me is it because shes had time to cool down and think whoops maybe I made a mistake, is it because shes afraid that if we talk I'm going to show her why you never get a wog truly pissed off at you (fair enough under the circumstances), will mummy dearest not let her? Dear god I loathe that woman with a firey intensity that makes the sun seem like a heat lamp, or is it because I was a convienient source of sperm and nothig of what she said to me over the last two years was true and now that I've served my purpose I should just fuck off out of her life forever?

questions questions

Oh well going on a little trip soon for a few weeks should serve as a lovely chance to literally get away from it all

A pleasant little distraction from everything else thats going on. Found the original Shadow of the beast for the Amiga and even Shadowrun for the old super nintendo system

Spoke last night to English Rose who informed me of some procedures that have to be followed in hospitals when mothers want to list the father as unknown on the birth certificate apparently a consellour is brought in to speak to the mother and assess the situation God I really hope that happens. But given what I've heard about the hospital shes most likely to give birth in I don't hold much hope. Fuck who am I kidding I don't even know if shes still in the fucking state.
Also spoke to K1 on an unrelated matter and while I was doing that she offered to call her for me and see if she'll talk to her. I was so touched by her offer seeing as how it had never crossed my mind. I gave her her mobile number hope something comes out of that even if its just baby is doing ok. GI you have someone wonderful there make sure you grab her with both hands and never let go mate.

Also spoke to J today shes coming to arm for easter then moving Alice springs to work with the communities up there she said that Melb wasn't working out for her she's not really a big city girl.

Just watched Wolf Creek really good film I must admit, although I did have a problem with one part of the film where it resorts to a hollywood cliche if you've seen it you'll know what I mean. But I suppose it does depict a normal reaction to that situation. The film certainly does make me want to gain a few more mechanical skills along with the inclination to never leave my car alone ever again in a public place

Going up and down at the moment making plans and changing them. Going back to uni then I'm going to TAFE. Staying in Tamworth then I'm going to Newcastle. I realise this is part of the process of emotional healing and i have to go through it but damn it. It takes so long why couldn't I just be a sociopath instead, someone hurts me I kill and eat them. sigh so much simpler that way

Quotes:

Apologies given the stress I'm presently under my memory is appaling at the moment


Everyone at some stage during the night: Gay.


B: Wait till you see Selsbys outfit it was all I could do to not jump his bones when he put it on.
Pathfinder: Ahh so we are having dinner and entertainment as well this evening.

Lowman: Ahh dolphins are just gay sharks.

Greyice: I was pretty happy with my phone and now I can see that its just gay.

Greyice: Its ok isn't you aren't going to be a lesbian unless shes really rich right?

Everyone at the end of the night: Add your favourite Chuck Norris fact in this category: Chuck Norris doesn't go hunting, Chuck Norris goes KILLIN